Prior to the I can make you thin post I should have written this one. But forgot... must mean Im feeling better.
I started getting these massive pains in my head a few weeks ago. It was after a particularly full on session with my Personal Trainer I woke up the next day with this throbbing pains in my skull. I realised it must be my neck or back out of wack. So I went to the chiropractor. I had xrays and they said my neck was out in two places and my back out in two places. Then they realised my skull was also out of wack too. I had it all adjusted back into place and I feel much better now. I think its from having to get used to sitting at a desk and in the wrong possy all day. I've now adjusted my monitor and seat so I'm sitting better. And I'm trying to use better posture as I work out and move around and I guess this extra awareness has started me on a crusade to be more aware of my body. The chiro thinks I've been out of wack for a while its just been agravated. So hopefully I'm ok now as back, neck and skull pain are quite nasty. I spend several nights just lying on my back afraid to move. Its amazing how just getting your back cracked can make you feel so much better.
However the people in the Chiro were weirdos. Think I wandered into a scientologist community or weird happy people cult. They were over friendly and over dedicated to their jobs. You know like "hi Ill be your assistant today, my name is Jackie. How can I help you." Like American overservice. Asking me really personal questions like "what was the most stressful thing you have ever had happen to you" I mean how is that relevant to the fact I've put my back out at the gym. Honestly do they think its any of their business... I'm there to get my back adjusted not to see a councilor.
I probably would have kept going longer but they made me feel a bit freaked out. I felt like they had no regard for my money or the quick cure i wanted. It cost me a fortune seeing them and they expecting me to come get my back cracked every week if not twice a week as a standard thing. This is even after I felt better. For example I rang to cancel my next appt when I felt better saying "i feel better so now I don't need my appt" receptionist said "sorry I will have to speak to the dr about if you can cancel". I said but "i feel fine now I dont need to come" she says "I need to ask the dr", i say "Well please do that but your best to cancel my appt as I'm not planning to come... thank you". It was as if I had to ask the Dr for permission to leave the cult. Weirdo's. I know they were trying to maximise their business but I felt like they were over treating me and wanted my money. I mean $50 a session for 2 minutes with the Dr who is running out of the room treating other patients as treating you then $200 for xrays and then I had to come back every day at first at $50 a session. Then they wanted me to attend a class during work hours or after hours on chiro stuff they didnt have time to tell me about during my 2 minute session with the Dr. I felt like saying... I'm paying you to tell me stuff. I'm not coming back at another time while I'm mean to be working for you to tell me stuff you don't have time to tell me while I'm paying you.... tell me while I'm bloodywell paying you to instead of running in and out of my session treating other people... Focus on one patient and do your bloody job properly. The Dr and staff I felt almost were angry at me for not being able to give up more time to come to one of their classes on Chrio. The fact I had an apptment at the time the class was being run didn't seem to matter to them. I think they felt I should have canceled it and made their class my priority. It was so rude.
Anywhoo. Letting it go. Feeling much better!
Sunday, October 10, 2010
I can make you thin!
We flew to Wellington for the weekend a few weeks ago. In the bookshop at the airport I bought Paul Mckenna's I can make you thin. Paul McKenna being the famous Hypnotist from the UK who has done a few TV shows. He does all sorts of books like "I can make you sleep", "Quit Smoking today", "Change your life in 7 days" etc etc. Anyway for some reason I bought the book and CD that went along with it. Noel and I jumped in the hire car and I put the CD on as a joke. Of course the volume was down and we missed the first few minutes saying do not listen to this cd in the car or while driving. ooops. Anyway we pissed ourselves laughing at the attempt at hypnotising us and the way his voice came out of one speaker then the next. Anyway then we started realising that his method could actually work. Its basically eat what you want when you want it. But listen to your body. Listen to when you are full and stop eating. So if you have a huge plate of food in front of you just leave the rest. You don't have to finish eating whats there if your full. We have been slowly reading his book and doing alot of thinking about his method. Noel of course has lost 3kgs from this method. I none yet. But I really haven't got my head around only eating till I'm full. I think I need to get back in touch with my stomach or myself. It turns out a Dr friend of ours here had actually recommended this book to us weeks ago and I'd forgotten. I met up with her and another friend who is a Physico on Friday night and they were saying its the only approach that they recommend. The physio was saying maybe I need to get back in touch with my breathing first to become more aware of my body as a whole. Then the eating till I'm full will just slip into place. This conversation has awoken a old memories of when I was an Actor and the breathing exercises we used to do every day to release our voices for projection reasons. Feldenkrais and Alexander Technique. I remembered at the time I was practicing this every day I was so in touch with my body and breathing. Over the years I've let this slip alot. Maybe I should restart this. My personal trainer says I should do some yoga to stretch. I guess this is kind of a similar thing without the breathing but the concept of getting relaxed and in touch with my body seems to be being thrown at me the last few weeks. So I must listen I guess.
Sooo.... here goes. I plan to do some breathing exercises every day for 20-30 minutes and see if I can stop breathing so shallow. I plan to try this listen to what my stomach is telling me thing and only eat till i'm full. Lets see what happens!
Sooo.... here goes. I plan to do some breathing exercises every day for 20-30 minutes and see if I can stop breathing so shallow. I plan to try this listen to what my stomach is telling me thing and only eat till i'm full. Lets see what happens!
Saturday, September 11, 2010
Normal service continued
Sorry I haven't updated for a few weeks. My priorities have been all screwed up of late. Although I'd put getting a job on the back burner and losing weight on the front burner I had my name casually with a few recruitement agents. One of them called me for a job interview 3 weeks ago. I went to it thinking there is no way I'd get the job considering I have no NZ experience. I didnt want the job but I bloody got it in the middle of the interview and I started last Tuesday. I've just completed 2 weeks work and I'm shagged. Im no longer the lady of leisure I have been for the last 10 months sadly. Its very sad really as I loath... no I hate what I do for a living. I resent having to learn an entire countries tax system... I'm an Ausy accountant by the way now living and working for the first time in NZ. Its not that I hate working or getting up earlier or anything. I just don't enjoy accounting anymore and having to relearn another countries tax system when you hate what you do anyway is just a drag. And it is just exhusting and its a huge effort on my behalf which I just don't feel up to but thats just bad luck really... I just hate what I do for a living basically. But the people are just lovely. I love the people and the view from my office is devine over the harbour. Its just accountancy I find is boring as bat shit. Actually Bat shit is more interesting.
I'm sorry I'm just whinging its ok. Its very challenging at present as I have to learn the whole tax system here and I am still upset about losing my freedom. But its a means to an end and we just bought a house this week so the extra money is very handy. I just need to suck it up and get on with it. My husband patiently listens to my whinging and keeps saying just work for another year or so or till we have a baby or can save up some money to start a business or something.
But again back to weight loss... if I don't lose the weight I will probably end up working for a lot longer as I won't be able to get pregnant due to my health issues. So I am trying to taking from a positive from this situation. The sooner I lose weight the sooner I can leave my job I hate.
So anyway back to losing weight....
Hypnosis was interesting. The first session was only half an hour and was held in what appeared to be a hippy commune. There were all these dregs of society lazily walking around the buildings and it was in the middle of the bush. I felt quite uncomfortable at first. But the room she took me into was nice and clean and she was friendly. I don't think I was hypnotised though. It was kind of like doing a session of Alexander technique where you focus on parts of your body and fill it with light and concentrate on your breathing.... basically she did 5 minutes of relaxation exercises then talked me down some visual stairs in my mind to go sit in a rocking chair in my mind again. Then she went on for a bit about how great I felt about losing weight and letting go of whatever was holding me back from losing weight and then talked me back up the stairs and back to consciousness. I was very consious the whole time think does she seriously think doing a few relaxation exercises will hypnotise me. I was fully aware of what was going on and a little unamused by this fact. Basically I felt she was taking the piss when afterwards she said I was definately under as when she said certain things my face would pull a funny expression. I didn't have the heart to tell her it was because I was thinking what the f..ck is she going on about. But chatting to her afterwards I realised that perhaps it had brought up some issues for me and that the relaxation probably did me some good. So with that in mind perhaps I should explore further so I made another longer apointment. The main problem I had with her was she was overweight herself. Nice but I didn't go there to make friends with her I went to her for help.. I was thinking (meanly I acknowledge) how can you help me if you haven't helped yourself? I know thats cruel but its true.
Anyway I went again the following week and this time we chatted for longer at the start. I had been thinking during the week that if she was going to help me I should tell her more about me. Mainly as the stuff she had said to motivate me while I was supposedly under the last time had not worked for me. So I told her a few things about my past and I realised afterwards that I don't think she was prepared or trained to council people as her responses were not a little underwhelming. She then put me under and again it didn't feel like it worked for me. Particularly as on the way down the stairs she missed the step number 8 and on the way up the stair number 7. I was actually listening for this as my personal trainer had told me she had done this to a 2 of the trainers at the gym who she had put under as a test thing when she gave them her flyer to advertise her services. I guess I might be an accountant deep down as the missing of the stairs just annoyed me and instead of waking up refreshed I felt quite annoyed that she didn't count the stairs properly and I'd just spent an hour sitting still in a chair definately not hypnotised. She asked me how I felt and I said I felt a bit annoyed before my brain kicked in and sensored this rude response... she said oh why... and of course I didn't have the guts to say because you missed the stairs numbers. I said I don't know why. She then went on and on that she thought my weight problems were my fathers fault for spoiling us with food treats as a child. He used to let us have KFC as a treat... big deal!!! I just sat there and said nothing and left as soon as I could. I swear its my pet hate when people blaming their parents or someone else for all the troubles in their life particularly weight issues. In some peoples case if they were abused perhaps it might be true. But most people haven't been abused. Who can people like me who had a great childhood blame.... my parents were the most loving caring happy people who are still together and gave us the most wonderful childhood you could ask for. How could it possibly be their fault I overeat and put on weight... Its me who puts the bloody food in my mouth and sits on her arse not exercising... not them. Anyway its my pet hate that.
Anyway I thought starting the job would make me exercise more. It means I will walk alot more to and from work. I still have my trainer 2 evenings a week (instead of during the day). Although I'm eating alot better and at more regular times. Although my weight lifting has improved so much this last few weeks. Although I'm doing much more walking... although although although I have not lost even 1 kg in the last 2 weeks. Not a gram. In fact I'm putting on weight. Not much but still a few hundred grams. Why... I just don't get it. I mean I have eaten the wrong things a few times but nothing to write home about. I've been having porriage for breakfast, fruit or museli bar for mid morning and a sandwich for lunch with meat and salad usually. Then I have some more fruit in the afternoon. For dinner some rice, veges and meat or something. I have upped my Caramel Latte count so maybe thats why?
I'm at a loss. Maybe I need to go see a nutritionist or dietician? I'm at a loss. I'm scared its the hormone imbalance. Maybe this is stopping me from losing weight. As my husband keeps pointing out at some point if I'm eating less calories than I'm burning off the weight will start falling off. Its not... and its floating around in the back of my mind that I will never be able to have children. A little voice of negativity sitting on my shoulder which I keep telling to bugger off.
So to know for sure I need to find a diet and stick 100% to it for say a month and do the cardio and see if I'm still not losing weight. If so I guess I need to go see some doctors or specialists as this just won't do. I guess seeing a dietician would be money well spent. I need to think about that. At present just getting used to working again is taking it out of me so I don't want to put too much pressure on myself.
Anyway thats me for now.
I'm sorry I'm just whinging its ok. Its very challenging at present as I have to learn the whole tax system here and I am still upset about losing my freedom. But its a means to an end and we just bought a house this week so the extra money is very handy. I just need to suck it up and get on with it. My husband patiently listens to my whinging and keeps saying just work for another year or so or till we have a baby or can save up some money to start a business or something.
But again back to weight loss... if I don't lose the weight I will probably end up working for a lot longer as I won't be able to get pregnant due to my health issues. So I am trying to taking from a positive from this situation. The sooner I lose weight the sooner I can leave my job I hate.
So anyway back to losing weight....
Hypnosis was interesting. The first session was only half an hour and was held in what appeared to be a hippy commune. There were all these dregs of society lazily walking around the buildings and it was in the middle of the bush. I felt quite uncomfortable at first. But the room she took me into was nice and clean and she was friendly. I don't think I was hypnotised though. It was kind of like doing a session of Alexander technique where you focus on parts of your body and fill it with light and concentrate on your breathing.... basically she did 5 minutes of relaxation exercises then talked me down some visual stairs in my mind to go sit in a rocking chair in my mind again. Then she went on for a bit about how great I felt about losing weight and letting go of whatever was holding me back from losing weight and then talked me back up the stairs and back to consciousness. I was very consious the whole time think does she seriously think doing a few relaxation exercises will hypnotise me. I was fully aware of what was going on and a little unamused by this fact. Basically I felt she was taking the piss when afterwards she said I was definately under as when she said certain things my face would pull a funny expression. I didn't have the heart to tell her it was because I was thinking what the f..ck is she going on about. But chatting to her afterwards I realised that perhaps it had brought up some issues for me and that the relaxation probably did me some good. So with that in mind perhaps I should explore further so I made another longer apointment. The main problem I had with her was she was overweight herself. Nice but I didn't go there to make friends with her I went to her for help.. I was thinking (meanly I acknowledge) how can you help me if you haven't helped yourself? I know thats cruel but its true.
Anyway I went again the following week and this time we chatted for longer at the start. I had been thinking during the week that if she was going to help me I should tell her more about me. Mainly as the stuff she had said to motivate me while I was supposedly under the last time had not worked for me. So I told her a few things about my past and I realised afterwards that I don't think she was prepared or trained to council people as her responses were not a little underwhelming. She then put me under and again it didn't feel like it worked for me. Particularly as on the way down the stairs she missed the step number 8 and on the way up the stair number 7. I was actually listening for this as my personal trainer had told me she had done this to a 2 of the trainers at the gym who she had put under as a test thing when she gave them her flyer to advertise her services. I guess I might be an accountant deep down as the missing of the stairs just annoyed me and instead of waking up refreshed I felt quite annoyed that she didn't count the stairs properly and I'd just spent an hour sitting still in a chair definately not hypnotised. She asked me how I felt and I said I felt a bit annoyed before my brain kicked in and sensored this rude response... she said oh why... and of course I didn't have the guts to say because you missed the stairs numbers. I said I don't know why. She then went on and on that she thought my weight problems were my fathers fault for spoiling us with food treats as a child. He used to let us have KFC as a treat... big deal!!! I just sat there and said nothing and left as soon as I could. I swear its my pet hate when people blaming their parents or someone else for all the troubles in their life particularly weight issues. In some peoples case if they were abused perhaps it might be true. But most people haven't been abused. Who can people like me who had a great childhood blame.... my parents were the most loving caring happy people who are still together and gave us the most wonderful childhood you could ask for. How could it possibly be their fault I overeat and put on weight... Its me who puts the bloody food in my mouth and sits on her arse not exercising... not them. Anyway its my pet hate that.
Anyway I thought starting the job would make me exercise more. It means I will walk alot more to and from work. I still have my trainer 2 evenings a week (instead of during the day). Although I'm eating alot better and at more regular times. Although my weight lifting has improved so much this last few weeks. Although I'm doing much more walking... although although although I have not lost even 1 kg in the last 2 weeks. Not a gram. In fact I'm putting on weight. Not much but still a few hundred grams. Why... I just don't get it. I mean I have eaten the wrong things a few times but nothing to write home about. I've been having porriage for breakfast, fruit or museli bar for mid morning and a sandwich for lunch with meat and salad usually. Then I have some more fruit in the afternoon. For dinner some rice, veges and meat or something. I have upped my Caramel Latte count so maybe thats why?
I'm at a loss. Maybe I need to go see a nutritionist or dietician? I'm at a loss. I'm scared its the hormone imbalance. Maybe this is stopping me from losing weight. As my husband keeps pointing out at some point if I'm eating less calories than I'm burning off the weight will start falling off. Its not... and its floating around in the back of my mind that I will never be able to have children. A little voice of negativity sitting on my shoulder which I keep telling to bugger off.
So to know for sure I need to find a diet and stick 100% to it for say a month and do the cardio and see if I'm still not losing weight. If so I guess I need to go see some doctors or specialists as this just won't do. I guess seeing a dietician would be money well spent. I need to think about that. At present just getting used to working again is taking it out of me so I don't want to put too much pressure on myself.
Anyway thats me for now.
Wednesday, August 18, 2010
Hypnosis
Well tonight I am seeing a Hypnotherapist for weight loss. I wonder if it will work. It was originally recomended to me by the manager at the gym. Then I made the mistake of telling my trainer and she has obviously told the Manager lady and all the staff at the gym I am going. I am now the Hypnosis guinea pig at the gym I fear. All the staff there keep asking me about it and when I'm going etc. A tad embarrassing but who cares if it works.
Husband has threatened to have words with the hypnotherapist to get me to do all sorts of things from getting a job to excessive sexual favours. I am more worried that when somewone claps i will start clucking like a chicken or barking like a dog. The therapist assures me they wont hypnotise me to want more hypnosis sessions. They must get asked that question alot!
Oh well fingers crossed.
No weight loss to report to date even though I'm slogging it out at the gym 3-4 times a week. I am meant to be doing 6 days a week. oops. I can hardly walk today as my thigh muscles have frozen into sitting down position. My eating habits are as bad as normal. I'm hoping that the hypnotheriapist can help me find the motivation to give up sweets and stick to a actual diet. That should help with the weight loss. Its amazing the times I've actually lost weight in the past have been when my head is in gear so thats what I'm hoping the therapist can help me with.
eek wish me luck.
Husband has threatened to have words with the hypnotherapist to get me to do all sorts of things from getting a job to excessive sexual favours. I am more worried that when somewone claps i will start clucking like a chicken or barking like a dog. The therapist assures me they wont hypnotise me to want more hypnosis sessions. They must get asked that question alot!
Oh well fingers crossed.
No weight loss to report to date even though I'm slogging it out at the gym 3-4 times a week. I am meant to be doing 6 days a week. oops. I can hardly walk today as my thigh muscles have frozen into sitting down position. My eating habits are as bad as normal. I'm hoping that the hypnotheriapist can help me find the motivation to give up sweets and stick to a actual diet. That should help with the weight loss. Its amazing the times I've actually lost weight in the past have been when my head is in gear so thats what I'm hoping the therapist can help me with.
eek wish me luck.
Saturday, August 7, 2010
What happens at 100%?
If your working out on say the cross trainer and your heart rate at 90% what happens when you get to 100%? Do you keel over? Why would they let you get to 100% it seems silly to me and dangerous. Call me nuts but this is the sort of thing that goes through my mind while exercising. Mainly I am thinking turn the f...ing music down and turn the tv's up. What is the point of having the tv on in front of the exercise machines if you can't bloody hear it. I'm also thinking why is the clock 10 minutes fast on one clock and 5 minutes fast on another in eyesight of each other. It gets on my wick as it seems I'm always late when I'm not. I think I'm getting old and grumpy. sigh!!!
Happy to report that my cardio fitness is getting better. 2 weeks ago I could only do 5 mins on the xtrainer before my feet went numb and I had to stop. Last week 10 minutes. Anyway today I did 15 minutes. Working my way up to 20 minutes then I will increase my speed. yah me... small goal but getting there. I can go forever on bikes and treadmills but the xtrainer puts my feet to sleep. Despite having my technique checked by my trainer. Bizzare really... so in summary either my feet have got used to being numb or I'm getting fitter. Most days I'm doing 45-60 mins split between the treadmill, bike, then the xtrainer for however long I can go. And I'm trying to go for a walk as well on days I can't be arsed going to the gym. Then my two training sessions with Sorina where this week she has uped the anti and working me much harder. My arms are sore a bit.
Despite all this i am yet to lose any weight still. However diet has been a little off. Oh well. It will happen. It can't not given the work I'm doing. I hope this isn't a sign my hormone imbalance is causing my weight. I hope its a sign that I am eating too much sugar. I suspect so.
Anywhoo off to dinner!
Happy to report that my cardio fitness is getting better. 2 weeks ago I could only do 5 mins on the xtrainer before my feet went numb and I had to stop. Last week 10 minutes. Anyway today I did 15 minutes. Working my way up to 20 minutes then I will increase my speed. yah me... small goal but getting there. I can go forever on bikes and treadmills but the xtrainer puts my feet to sleep. Despite having my technique checked by my trainer. Bizzare really... so in summary either my feet have got used to being numb or I'm getting fitter. Most days I'm doing 45-60 mins split between the treadmill, bike, then the xtrainer for however long I can go. And I'm trying to go for a walk as well on days I can't be arsed going to the gym. Then my two training sessions with Sorina where this week she has uped the anti and working me much harder. My arms are sore a bit.
Despite all this i am yet to lose any weight still. However diet has been a little off. Oh well. It will happen. It can't not given the work I'm doing. I hope this isn't a sign my hormone imbalance is causing my weight. I hope its a sign that I am eating too much sugar. I suspect so.
Anywhoo off to dinner!
Sunday, August 1, 2010
Skinny fat jeans
Well today I am wearing jeans I bought last November when we arrived in NZ. I haven't worn them since as they were a bit tight and cut into my stomach when I wore them. Today they fit like a glove. In fact they are a bit big. So I am wearing my skinny jeans I guess. Skinny fat jeans I'm calling them. Yah me.
Work outs with my personal trainer Sorina are going well twice a week. Shes very nice but I fear is being very easy with me. I almost fell over last week and crushed her to death while doing a stair step up exercise. She is such a little thing. First week I couldn't lift my arms for a few days but now I'm hardly noticing the work outs. My leg strength is quite good. I think from carrying around this giant bottom for so long has kept my muscles going.
I'm meant to be doing 45-60mins cardio every day above and beyond the 2 30 min sessions a week I do with the train. I am failing at that to be honest but I have been doing a bit above and beyond but not enough. I haven't had much time is my excuse. Insert sound of me blowing a rasberry at myself.
I also can not be arsed writing down what I eat and counting calories and protein, carbs and fat. Who has the time for that! Honestly! I'm soooo over counting calories. I am trying to eat healthier meals though. But still eating sugary treats. Noel and I have been contemplating hypnosis. Will keep you posted what we decide.
Hurray though... I have noticed my fitness has increased. My energy and enthusiasm has increased. My hormone imbalance which i can feel quite badly at pmt time seems to have dropped a bit. I am not feeling so up and down hormonally which is good as its very tiring emotionally. I am fitting into my skinny fat jeans. So with these benefits I'm very happy and its giving me incentive to keep going.
Negative is my weight hasn't dropped in fact I'm a few hundred grams above what I was when I started exercising 2 weeks ago. Weird huh. I don't think I could have put on muscle after 2 weeks working out. My trainer laughed at me when I suggested that it was increased muscle mass. Hmmm.... probably more likely biscuits and cake that may have sneaked into my diet.
Hmmmm... well this next week I'm going to try and eat better and do the extra exercise I'm meant to be doing and see what happens. But I think I feel much better than normal. Who would have thought a little exercise would feel so good.
Work outs with my personal trainer Sorina are going well twice a week. Shes very nice but I fear is being very easy with me. I almost fell over last week and crushed her to death while doing a stair step up exercise. She is such a little thing. First week I couldn't lift my arms for a few days but now I'm hardly noticing the work outs. My leg strength is quite good. I think from carrying around this giant bottom for so long has kept my muscles going.
I'm meant to be doing 45-60mins cardio every day above and beyond the 2 30 min sessions a week I do with the train. I am failing at that to be honest but I have been doing a bit above and beyond but not enough. I haven't had much time is my excuse. Insert sound of me blowing a rasberry at myself.
I also can not be arsed writing down what I eat and counting calories and protein, carbs and fat. Who has the time for that! Honestly! I'm soooo over counting calories. I am trying to eat healthier meals though. But still eating sugary treats. Noel and I have been contemplating hypnosis. Will keep you posted what we decide.
Hurray though... I have noticed my fitness has increased. My energy and enthusiasm has increased. My hormone imbalance which i can feel quite badly at pmt time seems to have dropped a bit. I am not feeling so up and down hormonally which is good as its very tiring emotionally. I am fitting into my skinny fat jeans. So with these benefits I'm very happy and its giving me incentive to keep going.
Negative is my weight hasn't dropped in fact I'm a few hundred grams above what I was when I started exercising 2 weeks ago. Weird huh. I don't think I could have put on muscle after 2 weeks working out. My trainer laughed at me when I suggested that it was increased muscle mass. Hmmm.... probably more likely biscuits and cake that may have sneaked into my diet.
Hmmmm... well this next week I'm going to try and eat better and do the extra exercise I'm meant to be doing and see what happens. But I think I feel much better than normal. Who would have thought a little exercise would feel so good.
Monday, July 19, 2010
Starting Again!
Well diet attempt number one has been a failure. I lost 2 kgs in 8-9 weeks. Not great but its a loss I guess. So I've been thinking of late that I need a bit more structure and exercise and to be a bit more disaplined. I'm so hopeless on my own as lately although I'm trying to diet I just have been eating what I want when I want it. So I've decided to scrap everything and start the whole diet again and try something different.
I weighed in at 122.1kg this morning. I'm still trying to lose as much as possible before January 2011. This time I'm aiming to lose 5 kgs at a time. So the first goal is 117.1 kg's. Every time I hit a 5kg goal Noel and I will celebrate somehow. Trying not to make it a food reward if possible.
So what am I doing differently this time.... well I joined the local Gym last week. EEEEEEk I know. I hate the Gym but I've come to the conclusion I need to suck it up and do some exercise. As soon as I joined last week I then promptly got the flue so couldnt go till this week. I also now have a personal trainer twice a week to help me get back into exercise. The first session is tomorrow. I'm very scared. I went today and did some cardio... almost killed me but I did it. I only made it to 35 minutes before my feet went to sleep on the xtrainer. I think it was my new sneakers which are really uncomfortable. Going to wear my old ones tomorrow and see if its that. Anyway I'm working my way up to an hour cardio a day so 35 minutes is a start.
The exercise plan being to work out twice a week with my trainer for 1/2 hour each session then on top of that work my way up to an hour cardio every day. By cardio I mean walking on the treadmill, going for a walk and light cardio like that. Just moving my big butt really.
Diet wise the trainer has advised me to start counting calories and eating healthy based. I have to write down what I eat each day and count the calories, protein, carbs etc. Its alot of work and I hate counting calories but I also have to suck that up too. I don't know how patient I will be doing this but I'm kind of used to writing down what I eat now. I'm not entirely sure how many calories a day yet I'm gonig to confirm that tomorrow with the trainer. I think its 1500 a day. Well thats what i've done pretty much today.
Anywhoo will keep posting what I eat and what I exercised each week and weigh in on Mondays.
Wish me luck tomorrow.
Eeek. Did I mention I'm scared... ahhhh gym... ahhhh
I weighed in at 122.1kg this morning. I'm still trying to lose as much as possible before January 2011. This time I'm aiming to lose 5 kgs at a time. So the first goal is 117.1 kg's. Every time I hit a 5kg goal Noel and I will celebrate somehow. Trying not to make it a food reward if possible.
So what am I doing differently this time.... well I joined the local Gym last week. EEEEEEk I know. I hate the Gym but I've come to the conclusion I need to suck it up and do some exercise. As soon as I joined last week I then promptly got the flue so couldnt go till this week. I also now have a personal trainer twice a week to help me get back into exercise. The first session is tomorrow. I'm very scared. I went today and did some cardio... almost killed me but I did it. I only made it to 35 minutes before my feet went to sleep on the xtrainer. I think it was my new sneakers which are really uncomfortable. Going to wear my old ones tomorrow and see if its that. Anyway I'm working my way up to an hour cardio a day so 35 minutes is a start.
The exercise plan being to work out twice a week with my trainer for 1/2 hour each session then on top of that work my way up to an hour cardio every day. By cardio I mean walking on the treadmill, going for a walk and light cardio like that. Just moving my big butt really.
Diet wise the trainer has advised me to start counting calories and eating healthy based. I have to write down what I eat each day and count the calories, protein, carbs etc. Its alot of work and I hate counting calories but I also have to suck that up too. I don't know how patient I will be doing this but I'm kind of used to writing down what I eat now. I'm not entirely sure how many calories a day yet I'm gonig to confirm that tomorrow with the trainer. I think its 1500 a day. Well thats what i've done pretty much today.
Anywhoo will keep posting what I eat and what I exercised each week and weigh in on Mondays.
Wish me luck tomorrow.
Eeek. Did I mention I'm scared... ahhhh gym... ahhhh
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