Tuesday, June 22, 2010

Week 5 - Weigh in

Starting Weight: 124.1 kg
Week 1 Weight: 121.6 kg
Week 2 Weight: 120.6 kg
Week 3 Weight: 121.9 kg
Week 4 Weight: 122.5 kg
Week 5 Weight: 121.5 kg
Weeks loss: 1.0 kg
Loss to date: 2.6 kg

I think I will call this week Crumpet week. I've eaten so many Crumpets. I guess thats not too bad as they are particularly low in fat but still how many Crumpets can one woman eat in a week and still love them. I loveeee them.

I'm amazed that I weighed in at 121.5kg yesterday morning. Thats 1.3 loss from loss week. I'm not back on track yet but thats a good loss in a week considering what I ate. I think the exercise I did on Sunday going for a really long walk along Takapuna beach did it. But I sabotaged it by having ice cream I think. It would have been a bigger loss.

I'm amazed I lost anything at all as I basically followed the diet for 2 days then fell apart again. I had beer and ice cream... and I made bad choices for take aways. I had sweets and all sorts of stuff. I did try and cut down meal sizes and skiped a few meals which probably didnt help my metabolism at all.

Bad me... once again I endeavour this week to try harder. Sigh... why is it so bloody hard. I have all the motivation in the world and yet I can't get my act together. When am I going to learn. I feel like I'm rebelling against my own better judgement! Silly me!

Top it off I've been in a pretty foul mood the last two days and extremely tired and worried about nothing really. Taking it out on people... maybe its because I haven't eaten the correct things?

Looking at what I ate this week it would seem I'm addicted quite badly to caffine. Well Caramel Lattes to be exact. I think I should cut down a bit as I think the sugar encourages me to binge.

Off to Australia for a trip in a few days for a few days so that will stuff my eating around again too. I will do my best as always.

Week 5 - Diet and Exercise

Week 5 - Monday, 14th June 2010

2 Litres of Water spread out over the day.

Exercise: Walked for 45 minutes


Breakfast - Time: 10.30 am

1 slice Home made pizza
1 cup Earl grey tea with trim milk

Updated blog for last week. Now to refocus!!!


Lunch - Time:

1 Whole Tuna and Mayo sandwich on white bread
1 Medium Trim Cappuccino

Out in city having a job interview so limited choice.

Dinner - Time:

Lemon Honey Chicken Salad:
140 grams Chicken Breast
135 grams Mixed lettuce, red capsicum, cucumber, tomato, shredded coconut
Sprinkle Fresh Coriander
Sprinkle Fresh Mint
Sprinkle Shallots
1 tspn Dark Soy Sauce
1 tspn Apple Cider vinegar
1 whole Lemon juiced
2 tblspns Honey
Sprinkle Plain Flour
1 tblspn Olive Oil
1 tblspn Sesame Seeds
1 tblspn Sunflower Seeds
50 grams Pumpkin Seeds

Pre heat oven to 200 degrees. Roll Chicken in flour that you have seasoned well with salt and pepper. Add honey, soy, lemon juice and vinegar to a baking dish and put over hot plate on stove to warm the honey so you can mix the sauce together. Once combined coat the chicken pieces in the sauce and put in the oven till chicken is cooked through and blackening a bit on top. Turn at least once during cooking. About 20-30 minutes or so total. The sauce should be thick and coating the sides of chicken. Add to the washed salad and herbs chopped to taste and drizzle olive oil on top. Remember to make more for tomorrows lunch.

2 tblspns Flaxseed Oil



Week 5 - Tuesday, 15th June 2010

2 Litres of Water spread out over the day.

Exercise: 20 minute walk


Breakfast - Time: 11.30am

3 Whole Crumpets with jam and butter
¼ cup Caramel Latte


Lunch - Time: 2.45pm

Lemon Honey Chicken Salad:

130 grams Chicken Breast
135 grams Mixed lettuce, red capsicum, cucumber, tomato, shredded coconut

Make as per last nights dinner.

1 can Diet Coke


Dinner - Time:

Thai Beef Salad:

140 grams Beef Sirloin Steak
145 grams Mixed Lettuce, Red and Green Capsicum, Cucumber, Red Onion, Cherry Tomatos
Sml Handful Cashew Nuts
Sprinkle Fresh Coriander
Sprinkle Fresh Mint
Sprinkle Fresh Basil
Sprinkle Shallots
Sprinkle Chopped Red Chilli
1 tblsn Fish Oil
1 tspn Soy Sauce
1 tspn Sesame Oil
1 whole Lime Juiced
1 tspn Sugar
1 sml Garlic clove crushed
½ cm Ginger grated
½ tblspn Olive Oil

Mix fish oil, lime juice, soy, sesame oil, sugar, garlic, ginger and olive oil together. Add salt and pepper to taste. Pour a little over steak and marinate for as long as possible, say 1 hour. Chargrill the steak in a hot hot pan sprayed with olive oil spray till outside blackened a bit. Leave to rest for 10 minutes while you make the salad then slice into thick strips. I like to chop the salad into long strips and toss in teared up herbs and nuts. Then toss the remaining salad dressing on and top with sliced beef strips.

1 can Diet Coke
1 sml Lite yoghurt Ice Cream
1 handful Rice Crackers




Week 5 - Wednesday, 16th June 2010

2 Litres of Water spread out over the day.

Exercise: Walked 1 hour


Breakfast - Time:


None


Lunch - Time:

Handful Turkish Delight
1 large Chocolate Chip Cookie
1 can Sprite Zero
1 medium Caramel Latte - trim

Out and about… I’m such a dag when it comes to sugar. I think I binged because I hadn’t had breakfast.


Dinner - Time:

Green Chicken Curry soup:

140 grams Chicken
145 grams Bean sprouts, cabbage, carrot, broccoli, beans
1 tblsn Green curry paste
½ tin Lite Coconut Milk
½ cup Chicken Stock
Sprinkle Coriander
2 whole Spring onions

Fry chicken till browned. Add curry paste and fry for 1 minute. Add in coconut milk and stock. Add vegetables and boil till cooked. Serve in bowl with lots of coriander sprinkled on.



Week 5 - Thursday, 17th June 2010

2 Litres of Water spread out over the day.

Exercise: Walked 30 minutes


Breakfast - Time:

2 whole Crumpets with butter and jam
1 mug Lite Caramel Latte


Lunch - Time:

1 medium Trim Caramel Latte


Dinner - Time:

Chicken Satay Spring Rolls:

140 grams Chicken mince
145 grams Onion, Bok Choy
2 whole Spring onions
Sprinkle Coriander
2 tblsns Satay paste
1 tspn Soy Sauce to taste
½ cup Lite Coconut cream
½ packet Spring roll sheets
½ cup Big Cous Cous

Pre heat oven to 200. Fry minced chicken and onion in hot pan till cooked. Add spring onion, satay paste, coconut milk and soy. Cook for a few minutes till sauce is quite thick. If you leave it too runny it will wreck the rolls. Wrap the meat and onion in spring roll sheets and bake for 10-15 minutes till crispy and browned. Serve with Big Cous Cous and steamed Bok Choy with a dash of lite soy.




Week 5 - Friday, 18th June 2010

2 Litres of Water spread out over the day.

Exercise: 30 minutes walking

Breakfast - Time:


1 whole Bacon, Egg and onion sandwich
1 medium Trim Latte
1 cup Earl grey tea


Lunch - Time:

1 medium Caramel latte
2 whole Crumpets with jam and butter


Dinner - Time:

At book club so had a few nibbles, grapes and olives.

5 bottles Beer – Carlton Green
½ whole Thin and crispy Peperoni Pizza

I know I know…



Week 5 - Saturday, 19th June 2010

2 Litres of Water spread out over the day.

Exercise: None today


Breakfast - Time:


4 whole Crumpets with golden syrup, butter and jam
1 cup Early grey tea


Lunch - Time:

none


Dinner - Time:

Take away Thai.
Satay beef and rice
Chicken Massaman and rice

Bad choices I know I know.




Week 5 - Sunday, 20th June 2010

2 Litres of Water spread out over the day.

Exercise: walked for 1.5 hours.


Breakfast - Time:


none


Lunch - Time:

2 whole Crumpets with jam and butter
1 cup Tea


Dinner - Time:

Out and about in Takapuna then Ponsonbary ery however u spell it.
3 little Meat balls with tomato
½ small Platter of dips and breads
½ bowl Vegetarian Natchos
1 mug Balieys Hot Chocolate
1 schooner Beer – Heiniken
2 scoops Hazelnut ice cream
2 scoop Chocolate hazelnut and yogurt and cherry ice cream in a cone

oh dear me… ice cream day.. .tops off a crap eating week.

Monday, June 14, 2010

Week 4 - Weigh in

Starting Weight: 124.1 kg
Week 1 Weight: 121.6 kg
Week 2 Weight: 120.6 kg
Week 3 Weight: 121.9 kg
Week 4 Weight: 122.5 kg
Weeks Gain: 0.6 kg
Loss to date: 1.6 kg

Well what a disaster this week has been. I've basically reverted back to my normal eating habits with no consideration for the diet. I guess being away has not helped but I could have made better choices thats for sure. I've had beer, desserts, pies more desserts and biscuits. What was I thinking!!! What a shit week basically!

Weight is 122.5kgs. So I've put on again.

Back to the drawing board I think. Instead of giving up I am going to refocus. I'm so embarrased about publishing what I ate this week but that is the purpose of this blog. I have to feel the embarrassment to really give myself a wake up call. I can't just eat what I want. I can't do that anymore. I have to find some sort of self disapline or I will get very sick. Soooooo instead of beating myself up any more I have decided not to do that. Instead I will take this as a positive reminder that diet has to be my prime focus. I can't take my eye off the ball at all or I will fail. Failure is not an option here. Why do I feel like Tom Cruise all of a sudden?

This week I will try and get back on track. I have to get back on track. These are the things I promise myself I will do:

I will make dieting my main focus this week.
I will do more exercise.
I will eat fruit.
I won't drink alcohol.
I won't eat ice cream or sugary treats.
I will plan my meals better.


Starting from now... go...

Wish me luck! (insert sound of me blowing a rasberry at myself)

Week 4 - Diet and Exercise

Week 4 - Monday, 7th June 2010

2 Litres of Water spread out over the day.

Exercise: Walked for 1.5 hours


Breakfast - Time: 11.30 am

Still away in Wellington


1 slice Chocolate & Espresso Cake
1 Medium Trim Cappuccino
1 Whole Focaccia with Chicken breast & Brie, lettuce and Mayo


Lunch - Time: 4pm

1 Whole Beef Pie and relish
1 Medium Caramel frappe


Dinner - Time: 9.30 pm
Had room service as Noel had to work late

300g Steak with Mushroom sauce with mash potato and carrots
1 Whole Chocolate brownie and ice cream
1 can Diet Coke



Week 4 - Tuesday, 8th June 2010

2 Litres of Water spread out over the day.

Exercise: 20 minutes walking.
Spent today mostly in the car driving from Wellington to Napier.


Breakfast - Time: 9am


1 cup Earl Grey Tea and milk
½ slice Caramel Slice
1 whole Chicken, Avocado and mayo sandwich


Lunch - Time: 2.30pm

½ bowl Vegetarian Nachos
1 little Nenish Tart


Dinner - Time: 7.30pm

½ serve Entrée of fried Haloumi and Homus etc
1 main serve Mixed Dips, falafels etc etc
1 can Diet Coke
6 little pieces Turkish Delight



Week 4 - Wednesday, 9th June 2010

2 Litres of Water spread out over the day.

Exercise: 30 minutes cleaning vigorously when got home, but mostly none to speak of as spent day in car driving from Napier to home


Breakfast - Time: 9.30 am

1 Whole Big Breakfast from café – eggs, bacon, toast, butter, mushrooms etc
1 glass Orange Juice
1 Medium Trim Cappuccino

Lunch - Time: 3.30pm
½ packet Caramel Swirl Biscuits
1 bottle Lemon & Lime Mineral Water


Dinner - Time: 6.30 pm

1 whole Grand Angus
1 Medium Coke
1 Medium Frys
1 Whole Apple pie from McDonalds



Week 4 - Thursday, 10th June 2010

2 Litres of Water spread out over the day.

Exercise: Walked for 1.5 hours


Breakfast - Time: 11.30am

2 slices Rye Bread toasted with Vegemeezy
1 can Diet Coke


Lunch - Time: 2pm

2 whole Home made beef pies


Dinner - Time: 7pm

Lamb, Vegetables with Honey and Red wine sauce:
140 grams Lamb cubed
145 grams Red Capsicum, Cubed Kumera, Bok choy, beans, baby spinach
1 tblspn Balsamic & Apple reduction sauce
1 tspn Balsamic Vinegar
¼ cup Honey
1 handful Chopped Parsley
1 tspn Butter
1 clove Garlic

Fry lamb in pan sprayed with olive oil spray till mostly cooked. Add in honey and both balsamic vinegars so meat kind of boils in sauce. Add in chopped capsicum, parsley and kumera till cooked through. Meanwhile add bok choy and beans to a separate pot with butter and garlic and fry till softened. Serve on a bed of washed baby spinach and topped with bok choy and beans.

1 can Diet Coke



Week 4 - Friday, 11th June 2010

2 Litres of Water spread out over the day.

Exercise: 1 hour walking


Breakfast - Time: 9am
2 whole Crumpets with Jam and butter
1 cup Caramel Latte


Lunch - Time: 2pm

100 grams Shaved Spicey Ham
2 tspns Mayo
1 tspn Soy Sauce
2 slices Tortilla extra lite
2 leaves Butter Lettuce

1 medium Latte trim


Dinner - Time: 8pm

Went out to dinner as couldn’t be arsed cooking!

1 serve Chicken, basil, chilli and cashew nuts
1 serve Rice
1 serve Beef Massaman – wasn’t very creamy as a normal version
1 whole Crown Larger

1 whole Choc Caramel Magnum



Week 4 - Saturday, 12th June 2010

2 Litres of Water spread out over the day.

Exercise: none to speak of


Breakfast - Time: 10.30 am


2 slices Crumpets with Jam and butter


Lunch - Time: 2pm

1 whole Muesli bar
1 cup Hot Chocolate


Dinner - Time: 8.30pm

Satay Beef lettuce wraps:

140 grams Beef thinly sliced
200 grams Cabbage, Capsicum red and green, Onion, Beans, Butter Lettuce
¼ bottle Satay Sauce mixed with water
1 handful Chopped Coriander fresh
1 tblspn Dark Soy Sauce

Fry beef till browned. Add onion and cook till soft. Add all other vegetables and sauce and cook till cabbage has wilted. Add in fresh coriander. Serve in lettuce cups.


2 Whole Nutty Choc Cornettos

30 grams Shaved Spicey Ham
1 tspns Mayo
1/2 tspn Soy Sauce
1 slices Tortilla extra lite



Week 4 - Sunday, 13th June 2010

2 Litres of Water spread out over the day.

Exercise: Walked 20 minutes


Breakfast - Time: 11.30am

2 slices Toast with Vegemeezy
1 cup Hot Chocolate lite


Lunch - Time: 4pm

100 grams Shaved Spicey Ham
2 tspns Mayo
1 tspn Soy Sauce
2 slices Tortilla extra lite
2 leaves Butter Lettuce


Dinner - Time: 7.30pm

4 slices Home made pizza

Home made Pizza:
Handful Shaved sandwich meat
Big Bowl Sliced vegetables (whatever you have in cupboard capsicum,tomato,onion)
3 tblsns Tomato paste with Italian herbs
Big sprinkle Mixed dried herbs
3 handfuls Lite cheese (mozzarella, tasty and parmesan)
3 cups Plain Flour
1 tspn Yeast
1 ¼ cups Warm Water
1 tspn Salt – keep this away from yeast or it will kill it
1 tblspn Olive Oil

Mix flour, yeast, water, salt and oil together till a dough is made. Put aside covered with a tea towel while you chop the vegetables and stuff around for about 1 hour. Pre heat oven to about 200 degrees. Punch into the centre of risen dough to let out the yeasty air. Massage dough for a minute or so and spread out over a pizza tray sprayed with Olive oil spray. I like to push the dough up on the edges so there is a nice crust. Cover with tomato paste and masses of chopped vegetables. Season well with salt and pepper and cover liberally with mixed herbs. Add cheese on top and bake in oven till cheese has browned on top and crust looks crispy and cooked. About 20 minutes but it depends on your oven.

2 whole Choc Caramel Magnam ice cream

Monday, June 7, 2010

Week 3 - Weigh in

Starting Weight: 124.1 kg
Week 1 Weight: 121.6 kg
Week 2 Weight: 120.6 kg
Week 3 Weight: 121.9 kg
Weeks Gain: 1.3 kg
Loss to date: 2.2 kg

Well I weighed in this morning having cunningly taken our scales with us on holidays at 121.9kgs. I've put on a few hundred grams this week but consiering what I've eaten this week I'm surprised I hadn't put on a few kilos. I think I need to buckle down again when I get home later in the week. I think all the walking I've been doing has helped stop the kilos pile on. So I'll try and cut down what I'm eating or make healthier choices for the next few days.

I know I know I said that during the week... but this time I really mean it.

Week 3 - Diet & Exercise

Week 3 - Monday, 31st May 2010

2 Litres of Water spread out over the day.

Exercise: Walked 20 minutes


Breakfast - Time: 9.30 am


Berry Yoghurt:
200 grams Low Fat Yoghurt - Fruit
100 grams Strawberries
2 tblspns Flaxseed/Linseed oil


Lunch - Time: 2.30 pm

Spent some of the day making low fat pies for hubbies lunches.

Homemade Meat Pie:


70 grams Beef mince – lean
70 grams Crushed tomatoes, onion
Sprinkle Mixed herbs
Squeeze Tomato Sauce
½ sheet Low fat pastry

Cook mince, tomatoes, onions and season with salt and pepper. I have a pie machine so I use that to make the pie. You could use a large muffin tray and cut out the shape of the pastry and top to fit it. Cook in moderate oven till pastry is browned.

1 can Diet Coke


Dinner - Time: 7.30 pm

Homemade Meat Pie and Salad:


70 grams Beef mince – lean
70 grams Crushed tomatoes, onion and baby spinach leaves
Sprinkle Mixed herbs
Squeeze Tomato Sauce
½ sheet Low fat pastry
1 tblspn Olive Oil

Cook mince, tomatoes, onions and season with salt and pepper. I have a pie machine so I use that to make the pie. You could use a large muffin tray and cut out the shape of the pastry and top to fit it. Cook in moderate oven till pastry is browned. Serve with crispy baby spinach leaves tossed in olive oil and salt and pepper.

2 mini Portuguese custard tarts – low fat




Week 3 - Tuesday, 1st June 2010

2 Litres of Water spread out over the day.

Exercise: Walk around city


Breakfast - Time: 9.30am

Vegemeezy Toast:

2 slices Rye Bread
2 tspns Cheesy Mite
1 whole Apple


Lunch - Time: 2.30pm

Sushi:
½ doz Little Sushi rolls with Chicken Katsu
1 can Diet Coke


Dinner - Time: 7.30pm

We had friends for dinner so these recipes I wouldn’t recommend for weight loss.

Rocket, Parmesan, Pear, Macadamia nut salad with Sour Dough bread:
Handful Rocket
4 whole Macadamia nuts
1 tblspn Olive Oil
1 tspn Balsamic Vinegar
¼ whole Pear
Squeeze Lime
1 chunk Sour Dough Bread
Sprinkle Sliced Parmesan cheese

Use a peeler and thinly slice pear and squeeze lime all over to stop browning. Toss leaves, cheese, nuts, oil and vinegar together and serve with bread.

Beef Bourguignon with Mashed Potato:
This recipe serves 6.
1 kilo Good Beef Steak
3 cups Good Red Wine
1 cup Beef Stock
3 tblsns Flour
3 whole Onions
3 whole Dried Bay leaves
Sprinkle Thyme
Sprinkle Parsley
2 handfuls Chopped Mushrooms
1 handful Potato chopped
4 tblspns Butter

Brown steak and remove. Cook down onions till soft. Add back in steak and flour. Cook for 1 minute. Add wine, stock, mushrooms, potato, butter and herbs. Season well. Cook for as long as you can till sauce thickens and steak is soft. Serve with a chunk of bread.

2 whole Portuguese Custard Tarts
4 glasses Champagne




Week 3 - Wednesday, 2nd June 2010

2 Litres of Water spread out over the day.

Exercise: Walk 20 minutes


Breakfast - Time: 9.30 am


1 whole Apple
1 cup Diet Hot Chocolate


Lunch - Time: 3.30 pm

Turkey and Salad Sandwich:

130 grams Turkey sliced
135 grams Cucumber, Lettuce, Tomato
1tspn Cranberry sauce
2 slices Rye Burgan Bread
1 can Sprite Zero


Dinner - Time: 8.30 pm

Beef Bourguignon with Mashed Potato:

Left overs from last night served with a large handful of baby spinach leaves.

4 whole Portuguese Custard Tarts



Week 3 - Thursday, 3rd June 2010

2 Litres of Water spread out over the day.

Exercise: Walk for 2 hours


Breakfast - Time: 9am

Vegemeezy Toast:

2 slices Rye Bread
2 tspns Cheesy Mite

1 medium Trim Latte


Lunch - Time: 2pm

Ham and Salad Sandwich:

130 grams Ham sliced
50 grams Lettuce, Tomato
1 slice Cheese
2 slices Rye Burgan Bread

1 small Strawberry Tart from the Museum of Auckland


Dinner - Time: 7pm

Chinese Beef and Vegetables:

From take away shop.

4 whole Portuguese Custard Tarts




Week 3 - Friday, 4th June 2010

2 Litres of Water spread out over the day.

Exercise: Walk 30 minutes


Breakfast - Time: 9am

Vegemeezy Toast:

2 slices Rye Bread
2 tspns Cheesy Mite

1 medium Trim Latte
1 whole Chocolate Brownie


Lunch - Time: 2pm

Turkey and Salad Sandwich:

130 grams Turkey sliced
135 grams Cucumber
1tspn Cranberry sauce
2 slices Rye Burgan Bread

1 can Diet Coke


Dinner - Time: 8pm

Away in Wellington – had to eat out at a restaurant called Dockside I think at the Queens Wharf near Wellington Museum.

Roast lamb with honey pumpkin and fennel.
½ Coconut panacotta with berry sorbet

I know… naughty but so yummy.




Week 3 - Saturday, 5th June 2010

2 Litres of Water spread out over the day.

Exercise: 2 hours walking


Breakfast - Time:


Away in Wellington slept in.



Lunch - Time: 2pm

I know I know….

1 Whole Grand Angus Burger from McDonalds
1 large Chips
1 large Diet Coke

1 medium Caramel Hot Chocolate


Dinner - Time: 8.30pm

Dinner at Belgium Pub with Noels boss and work mate. I know… I know…

Lamb and Italian Vegetables with a red wine sauce.
6 glasses Beer




Week 3 - Sunday, 6th June 2010

2 Litres of Water spread out over the day.

Exercise: Walked for 4.5 hours


Breakfast - Time: 11.30am


Away in Wellington

1 whole Beef pie
1 slice Chocolate Cake
1 medium Caramel Latte trim


Lunch - Time: 4pm

Away in Wellington

1 bowl Minestrone Soup
1 small bread roll
1 tspn Butter
1 medium trim cappuccino


Dinner - Time: 7.30pm

Away in Wellington – went back to Dockside restaurant as we enjoyed it so much the first time.

Garlic Bread
Roast lamb with honey pumpkin and fennel.
½ Crème Brulee with strawberry shortcake and strawberries

½ can Sprite Zero

Low Fat Portugese Tarts

These are great! I served them for dessert when we had friends over this week. A great low fat little dessert if you have to serve one. This recipe makes 12 little tarts.

1 whole Egg
2 whole Egg yolks
2 tblsns Corn Flour
400 mls Trim Milk
2 tblsns Vanilla
2 sheets Low Fat Pastry - you can get this at supermarket

Heat oven to 200. Fold over both pastry sheets in half. Roll into tubes. Slice each tube into 6 equal pieces. Roll out into circles and place in a greased cupcake tin. Put baking paper inside pastry and fill with baking pepples to hold pastry down. Bake for about 15 minutes till pastry is almost cooked. Take out of oven and cool shells fully removing the pepples and baking paper. Mix a bit of milk with corn flour to remove the lumps. Mix eggs, remainder of milk and vanilla. Fill shells with custard and place on top shelp in oven and cook till starting to blacken on top of custard and custard has thickened. This should be about 15-20 minutes. I like to serve cold with sliced strawberries.

Friday, June 4, 2010

Write off!

Well this week so far started well then decended into the depths of many portugese custard tarts. What a write off! I broke the diet on Tuesday evening to cook dinner for guests we had. It was a fab dinner Rocket, Parmesan, Pear and Macadamia salad with sour dough. Beef Bourgenyon and mashed potato and Portugese custard tarts with strawberries for dessert. Also had loads of champayne. I had all good intentions of starting the diet again the next day but I just couldn't get my head around it. At least the Portugese custard tards I'd made with low fat pastry and low fat milk but still they aren't on the diet. Worse I had such a craving for them the next day I made 2 dozen more thinking I'd leave a dozen behind for our house sitters this weekend and Noel and I could take a few away with us.

Well we are away for a bit this next few days and there are only about 8 left out of the 2 dozen and I'm not leaving any behind. We are shocking!!! We've eaten almost the lost in 2 days. I've eaten pretty well considering around that but because I've also been out running around and going to job interviews and things and just haven't had time to cook. I also may have had a small jam tart at the Auckland museum when i took a friend there yesterday. Oopsy. So I think I'm going to have to either be more disaplined when we return and while I'm away or gosh knows what I will do.

At present I've put on a few hundred grams so its not too bad but I am concerned about going away for the weekend and my downward sprial I seem to be on. So I've packed sandwiches for today and lots and lots of apples and other fruit so at least I eat that first not roadside food on the way. I'm planning to eat in Thai and Chinese restaurtants alot so I can just have meat and vegetables. For lunches I can have a sandwhich and for breakfast maybe some boiled eggs or whatever I can find in the hotel or around. Its going to be hard but I will try and keep what I eat a) to a miniumum and b) healthy and c) do loads of exercise.

Wish me luck for the next few days eating out every meal! I just need to remind myself of the importance of losing this weight! Vanessa you wont have children and may get cancer if you continue this way. Grow up and get back on track.

There now I hope that helps if I say it many times to myself over the next few days!