Wednesday, August 18, 2010

Hypnosis

Well tonight I am seeing a Hypnotherapist for weight loss. I wonder if it will work. It was originally recomended to me by the manager at the gym. Then I made the mistake of telling my trainer and she has obviously told the Manager lady and all the staff at the gym I am going. I am now the Hypnosis guinea pig at the gym I fear. All the staff there keep asking me about it and when I'm going etc. A tad embarrassing but who cares if it works.

Husband has threatened to have words with the hypnotherapist to get me to do all sorts of things from getting a job to excessive sexual favours. I am more worried that when somewone claps i will start clucking like a chicken or barking like a dog. The therapist assures me they wont hypnotise me to want more hypnosis sessions. They must get asked that question alot!

Oh well fingers crossed.

No weight loss to report to date even though I'm slogging it out at the gym 3-4 times a week. I am meant to be doing 6 days a week. oops. I can hardly walk today as my thigh muscles have frozen into sitting down position. My eating habits are as bad as normal. I'm hoping that the hypnotheriapist can help me find the motivation to give up sweets and stick to a actual diet. That should help with the weight loss. Its amazing the times I've actually lost weight in the past have been when my head is in gear so thats what I'm hoping the therapist can help me with.

eek wish me luck.

Saturday, August 7, 2010

What happens at 100%?

If your working out on say the cross trainer and your heart rate at 90% what happens when you get to 100%? Do you keel over? Why would they let you get to 100% it seems silly to me and dangerous. Call me nuts but this is the sort of thing that goes through my mind while exercising. Mainly I am thinking turn the f...ing music down and turn the tv's up. What is the point of having the tv on in front of the exercise machines if you can't bloody hear it. I'm also thinking why is the clock 10 minutes fast on one clock and 5 minutes fast on another in eyesight of each other. It gets on my wick as it seems I'm always late when I'm not. I think I'm getting old and grumpy. sigh!!!

Happy to report that my cardio fitness is getting better. 2 weeks ago I could only do 5 mins on the xtrainer before my feet went numb and I had to stop. Last week 10 minutes. Anyway today I did 15 minutes. Working my way up to 20 minutes then I will increase my speed. yah me... small goal but getting there. I can go forever on bikes and treadmills but the xtrainer puts my feet to sleep. Despite having my technique checked by my trainer. Bizzare really... so in summary either my feet have got used to being numb or I'm getting fitter. Most days I'm doing 45-60 mins split between the treadmill, bike, then the xtrainer for however long I can go. And I'm trying to go for a walk as well on days I can't be arsed going to the gym. Then my two training sessions with Sorina where this week she has uped the anti and working me much harder. My arms are sore a bit.

Despite all this i am yet to lose any weight still. However diet has been a little off. Oh well. It will happen. It can't not given the work I'm doing. I hope this isn't a sign my hormone imbalance is causing my weight. I hope its a sign that I am eating too much sugar. I suspect so.

Anywhoo off to dinner!

Sunday, August 1, 2010

Skinny fat jeans

Well today I am wearing jeans I bought last November when we arrived in NZ. I haven't worn them since as they were a bit tight and cut into my stomach when I wore them. Today they fit like a glove. In fact they are a bit big. So I am wearing my skinny jeans I guess. Skinny fat jeans I'm calling them. Yah me.

Work outs with my personal trainer Sorina are going well twice a week. Shes very nice but I fear is being very easy with me. I almost fell over last week and crushed her to death while doing a stair step up exercise. She is such a little thing. First week I couldn't lift my arms for a few days but now I'm hardly noticing the work outs. My leg strength is quite good. I think from carrying around this giant bottom for so long has kept my muscles going.

I'm meant to be doing 45-60mins cardio every day above and beyond the 2 30 min sessions a week I do with the train. I am failing at that to be honest but I have been doing a bit above and beyond but not enough. I haven't had much time is my excuse. Insert sound of me blowing a rasberry at myself.

I also can not be arsed writing down what I eat and counting calories and protein, carbs and fat. Who has the time for that! Honestly! I'm soooo over counting calories. I am trying to eat healthier meals though. But still eating sugary treats. Noel and I have been contemplating hypnosis. Will keep you posted what we decide.

Hurray though... I have noticed my fitness has increased. My energy and enthusiasm has increased. My hormone imbalance which i can feel quite badly at pmt time seems to have dropped a bit. I am not feeling so up and down hormonally which is good as its very tiring emotionally. I am fitting into my skinny fat jeans. So with these benefits I'm very happy and its giving me incentive to keep going.

Negative is my weight hasn't dropped in fact I'm a few hundred grams above what I was when I started exercising 2 weeks ago. Weird huh. I don't think I could have put on muscle after 2 weeks working out. My trainer laughed at me when I suggested that it was increased muscle mass. Hmmm.... probably more likely biscuits and cake that may have sneaked into my diet.

Hmmmm... well this next week I'm going to try and eat better and do the extra exercise I'm meant to be doing and see what happens. But I think I feel much better than normal. Who would have thought a little exercise would feel so good.

Monday, July 19, 2010

Starting Again!

Well diet attempt number one has been a failure. I lost 2 kgs in 8-9 weeks. Not great but its a loss I guess. So I've been thinking of late that I need a bit more structure and exercise and to be a bit more disaplined. I'm so hopeless on my own as lately although I'm trying to diet I just have been eating what I want when I want it. So I've decided to scrap everything and start the whole diet again and try something different.

I weighed in at 122.1kg this morning. I'm still trying to lose as much as possible before January 2011. This time I'm aiming to lose 5 kgs at a time. So the first goal is 117.1 kg's. Every time I hit a 5kg goal Noel and I will celebrate somehow. Trying not to make it a food reward if possible.

So what am I doing differently this time.... well I joined the local Gym last week. EEEEEEk I know. I hate the Gym but I've come to the conclusion I need to suck it up and do some exercise. As soon as I joined last week I then promptly got the flue so couldnt go till this week. I also now have a personal trainer twice a week to help me get back into exercise. The first session is tomorrow. I'm very scared. I went today and did some cardio... almost killed me but I did it. I only made it to 35 minutes before my feet went to sleep on the xtrainer. I think it was my new sneakers which are really uncomfortable. Going to wear my old ones tomorrow and see if its that. Anyway I'm working my way up to an hour cardio a day so 35 minutes is a start.

The exercise plan being to work out twice a week with my trainer for 1/2 hour each session then on top of that work my way up to an hour cardio every day. By cardio I mean walking on the treadmill, going for a walk and light cardio like that. Just moving my big butt really.

Diet wise the trainer has advised me to start counting calories and eating healthy based. I have to write down what I eat each day and count the calories, protein, carbs etc. Its alot of work and I hate counting calories but I also have to suck that up too. I don't know how patient I will be doing this but I'm kind of used to writing down what I eat now. I'm not entirely sure how many calories a day yet I'm gonig to confirm that tomorrow with the trainer. I think its 1500 a day. Well thats what i've done pretty much today.

Anywhoo will keep posting what I eat and what I exercised each week and weigh in on Mondays.

Wish me luck tomorrow.

Eeek. Did I mention I'm scared... ahhhh gym... ahhhh

Sunday, July 4, 2010

Change to goal posts! Motivation!!!!

You may notice if you have been following me that I've changed the goal posts at bit. I've moved the loss date to January and added 30 to 55kgs as the loss goal. Yes I know... I know... While its still completely unrealistic I need to have that massive goal in mind to keep perspective on how much I'm trying to lose. If I can lose at least 30kg of the 55kgs by January I might be able to start trying for a child then. I am meant to go in January/February after losing stacks of weight and have my hormone replacement thingo removed. My gino won't do that if I haven't lost at least 30kgs weight because there is the risk to my health due to the hormone imbalance.

Anyway assuming I've lost the weight and they remove the device then it will be a month or so before my period comes back to normal before we can start trying to get preganant. I can continue my diet and exercise during this time more realistically until I get pregant assuming I can. So when I say to January I mean I need to lose the bulk of my 55kgs before then not the whole lot. I'm not a complete idiot... well sometimes I am but not all the time. I know I might only lose half of the 55 kgs before January but still I can dream can't I. I'd rather get it over and done with quickly to be honest.

Anyway mentally I am going to start again basically from tomorrow morning as the last few weeks have been a bit of a disaster diet wise. I wouldn't even call what I've been doing bar the first 2 weeks dieting. Anyway lets leave that in the past and move forward.

So here goes nothing. I have 30 weeks till end of January from now. That means I need to lose 30 to 53kg in 30 weeks. So I will be happy with losses between 1kg to 1.77g a week.

How will I do that:

Firstly by changing my attitude and remotivating myself. Mentally I'm going to remind myself why I am doing this everytime I go to prepare food or eat food and see if that helps me make better choices.

Exercise... well alot... I am thinking I might do some Zumba, Walking and bike riding to start with. I think I might go for a bike ride today husband willing. I will up my exercise daily is the plan.

Diet.... I am going to go back to the drawing board and try and be a bit more flexible with my diet so I don't feel so restricted. Trying to follow a strick plan doesn't work for me obviously as I just rebel against it. I will have to contemplate that a bit more over the next week and try and come up with a better diet plan.

Anywhoo have a lovely rest of the day.

xx

Thursday, July 1, 2010

Week 6 - Weigh in

Starting Weight: 124.1 kg
Week 1 Weight: 121.6 kg
Week 2 Weight: 120.6 kg
Week 3 Weight: 121.9 kg
Week 4 Weight: 122.5 kg
Week 5 Weight: 121.5 kg
Week 6 Weight: 122.0 kg
Weeks Gain: 0.5 kg
Loss to date: 2.1 kg

Well because we were in Australia Friday till Midnight Tuesday I didnt have my scales with me. So I couldn't weigh in till Wednesday. I was 122kg. In the last 6 weeks that means I've lost 2.1 kg. Its a joke really. I should have lost 6 to 12 kgs. What the hell have I been thinking. I'm not dieting at all really if you look at what I'm eating. I am not making any sacrifices and that is why I have not lost any weight. I don't mean to sound down on myself but I need a seriously large kick in the arse right now!

Ok kick in the arse done. I have resolved to leave the last few weeks in the past and move on from here.

Today things will change. I will change my mental attitude. I will get off my arse and do something about losing weight.

Week 6 - Diet & Exercise

Week 6 - Monday, 21st June 2010


2 Litres of Water spread out over the day.


Exercise: Walk 1 hour


Breakfast - Time:


none

Lunch - Time:

1 medium Trim Caramel Latte
1 whole Jam Donut
1 whole Chicken and butter white sandwich
2 mini Mini Tarts coin size

I swear I ate this because I didn’t have breakfast. I need to have breakfast or I binge obviously.


Dinner - Time:

1 serve Sushi rolls, fried rice ball, tempura prawn

Singapore noodles:
140 grams Chicken cut into little pieces
145 grams Red Capsicum, Green Capsicum, Onion
Sprinkle Shallots
Sprinkle Coriander
½ tblspn Curry Powder or more to taste
1 tblspn Soy Sauce
1 tblspn Rice Wine
½ tblspn Ginger
1 handful Vermicelli noodles
1 cup Boiling water

Marinate the chicken in the soy, ginger and rice wine for as long as you’ve got. Fry the chicken till browned in a hot pan sprayed with olive oil then add rest of the marinade and cook right down. Take the chicken pieces out and fry curry power for 1 minute. Then add the vegetables till just cooked. Add back the chicken pieces. Meanwhile put the noodles in a heat proof bowl and cover with the boiling water. Leave for 5 minutes till soft. Drain the noodles and put back in large bowl. Stir in the chicken mixture and herbs.




Week 6 - Tuesday, 22nd June 2010


2 Litres of Water spread out over the day.


Exercise: Walked 30 minutes. Also cleaned the house from top to bottom vigorously.


Breakfast - Time:


2 whole Crumpets with lite butter and honey.
1 mug Lite caramel latte


Lunch - Time:

1 bowl Singapore noodles from last night. Much better the next day. The night before they were a bit to curry flavoured but perfect the next day.


Dinner - Time:

Went out to dinner as hubby going away in the morning on business trip to Ausy. I’m meeting him there on Friday. We made bad choices.

1 serve Butter chicken
1 serve Beef Korma
1 serve Cheese Nan
2 bottles Beer – Monteiths Golden Ale
1 serve Pappadums with dips



Week 6 - Wednesday, 23rd June 2010


2 Litres of Water spread out over the day.


Exercise: Walked 30 minutes


Breakfast - Time:


2 whole Crumpets with butter and honey
1 mug Lite Hot Chocolate


Lunch - Time:

6 slices Chicken Teriyaki Sushi
1 medium Trim Caramel Latte
½ can Diet Coke

Out and about at job interview so didn’t have much choice.


Dinner - Time:

3 small Bean and Cheese Burritos
1 bar Moro Chocolate
3 bars Weight watches ginger bars


why am I eating chocolate bars… oh my goodness me. I need to refocus again. I just can’t seem to get my head around dieting at the moment. I wanted it so I ate it. Oh well I will try harder tomorrow. I think I was a bit depressed from the job interview. It went well but I so don’t want a job. ahhh



Week 6 - Thursday, 24th June 2010


2 Litres of Water spread out over the day.


Exercise: not much had a lazy day


Breakfast - Time:


2 whole Crumpets with Jam and lite butter.
1 mug Lite Hot Chocolate


Lunch - Time:

2 whole Crumpets with Jam and lite butter.
2 bars Weight watchers ginger nut thingos

I’m sure it can’t have much nutritional value eating only crumpets during the day. I think I am crumpet obsessed.


Dinner - Time:

Oh dear… husband away so I ordered Dominos. I can never be bothered to cook when I am alone. I guess I’m kidding myself that ordering thin and crispy makes a difference. It was so greasy that it was running down my hand as I ate it.

½ whole Pepperoni pizza thin and crispy
3 slices Garlic Bread
6 little Chicken kickers spicy
1 serve Chocolate pudding



Week 6 - Friday, 25th June 2010


2 Litres of Water spread out over the day.


Exercise: Walked 1 hour via Airport transferring flights catching trains, going to supermarket etc.


Breakfast - Time:


2 whole Crumpets with jam and butter
½ mug Lite hot chocolate

The hot chocolate I dropped all over the carpet and bedspread in our bedroom about 10 minutes before I had to leave the house to catch a plane to Australia. Ahhhh I actually saw myself doing it 5 minutes before hand so I moved it out of the way. Then picked it up and it slipped out of my hand exactly where I had foreseen it. Weird… do you ever have moments like that?


Lunch - Time:

1 serve Big Mac and medium fries
6 sips Diet coke


Dinner - Time:

Aeroplane food…

1 serve Green salad
1 little Dinner roll and butter
1 serve Teriyaki chicken with rice and vegetables
1 little Toblarone Chocolate
1 cup Crap tea
1 serve Chocolate Ice Cream stick
6 little Lindt Chocolates



Week 6 - Saturday, 26th June 2010


2 Litres of Water spread out over the day.


Exercise: None to speak of


Breakfast - Time:


2 slices Multigrain toast with jam
1 cup Earl Grey Tea and milk


Lunch - Time:

At friends house in Aus for a play reading. A play we had written together.

Handful Party nibbles
1 cup Tea and milk


Dinner - Time:

1 bowl Vegetable Curry and natural yoghurt
made by friend. Twas so yum!

Lots and lots of red wine and champagne… countless amounts
Yeah I know... but I am on holidays.



Week 6 - Sunday, 27th June 2010


2 Litres of Water spread out over the day.


Exercise: none to speak of


Breakfast - Time:


1 serve Bacon
1 whole Fried Egg
2 slices Wholemeal bread
2 cups Tea and milk

Stayed at Friends house. Was lovely having this made for me.


Lunch - Time:

1 whole McChicken burger
1 medium Fries
3 spoons Chocolate sundae
½ serve Diet coke

Hang over cure.


Dinner - Time:

1 slice Chocolate pudding with vanilla ice cream
at friends Mums Bday celebration

1 bowl Beef and Red Wine Casserole
2 sml Bacon and cheese bread rolls with butter
10 little Lindt Chocolates
2 sml Almond and lemon Friands

Mum cooked the dinner and dessert. Twas yum!